{"id":2041,"date":"2012-03-21T11:15:07","date_gmt":"2012-03-21T16:15:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/atinadiffley.com\/?p=2041"},"modified":"2012-05-18T08:50:10","modified_gmt":"2012-05-18T13:50:10","slug":"john-steinbecks-journal","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/atinadiffley.com\/john-steinbecks-journal\/","title":{"rendered":"John Steinbeck’s Journal"},"content":{"rendered":"

For those of you who enjoyed my blog post, I “Wish” No More<\/a>,<\/em> about my childhood, self-inflicted intimation of the writing skills of Steinback.<\/p>\n

Excerpt from John Steinbeck\u2019s journals while he was working on Grapes of Wrath.<\/h4>\n

March 21<\/p>\n

My many weaknesses are starting to show their heads. I simply must get this thing out of my system. I\u2019m not a writer. I\u2019ve been fooling myself and other people. I wish I were. This success will ruin me as sure as hell. It probably won\u2019t last, and that will be all right. I\u2019ll try to go on with work now. Just a stint every day does it. I keep forgetting.<\/p>\n

Always I have been weak. Vacillating and miserable. I wish I wouldn\u2019t. I wish I weren\u2019t. I\u2019m so lazy, so damned lazy. This year though I have made up for last year\u2019s lay off. I really have batted out a lot of words. I would go through until winter if I could. But if I don\u2019t lay off it will be done, and if I do lay off I\u2019ll lose the thread. I am simply incapable of working any way but hard and fast. That is the only way I can make it. This is too bad. It is almost impossible in fact but I must get calm and quieted before I can go on. I mean that streak yesterday was curiously indecent. I don\u2019t know why but it was. So many things. How impossible it is for me to think. Just writing words, but the thing is starting in my brain. I must get the tempo. — via Heron Dance Studio<\/a><\/p>\n

He used the word “wish” three times! Steinbeck considered himself to be a failure as a writer, and lazy, so he forced himself to write. The results of that process, of trying to compensate for what he thought of as a lack of talent and discipline, were some truly great novels.<\/p>\n

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